When I was little, I've had a lot of ideals, began to want to be a world player , teachers, flight attendants, pilots, soldiers to mass media journalists were sent to conflict areas. But none of my ideals who want a religious teacher or cleric or so the bearer of the message. Never imagined with things like that. I never even aspire to live an Islamic life, then, I think Islam is ancient, outdated. System life is what makes capitalism has thought secular lifestyle. Imagine, from the elementary school I was educated in public schools (secular school), junior high to high school too. It is then the background I have a secular mindset.
Finish elementary school, my mother asked me to enter the boarding school, but I was not interested. Frameku when it is, schools where the ancient, not modern. I had to wear a veil that would restrict gerakku. And I want to free expression as western people there are free to move to and fro without any obstacles.
Shows in the media who became one of the factors I have a secular thinking like this. My idol when it is artists West, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, and Boys Band that when it is rising artists that I like, which I thought at the time they are modern, advanced because it does not bring religious identity. For me (once again, at that), Islam I looked restrict the movement of women with all the obligations that must be fulfilled, such as veiling.
Graduated from high school, my mother's tireless expect me to go in pesantran, again I refused. I have absolutely no desire to enter the boarding school. Boarding schools will only weaken me. I want to go forward with the current secular education. Qiblah my thinking at that time was the West. I looked further west than Islam, then no doubt, kuadopsi Liberal thinking at the time. Astaghfirullah ....
From elementary to high school I did not shut auratku, in addition to not have a full understanding of the obligation to close the genitals, as well as school friends that most of them did not close the genitals. Especially when the school was also less support to students who close the genitals. Understandably, I was a product of the new order, which at that time, Islamic studies not proliferated as they are now. I do not even like the women who wear the veil width, antediluvian. Astaghfirullah ....
However, circumstances changed 180 degrees when I graduated from high school and worked at a number of companies in Tangerang. That's where I met with ideological Islamic studies. I was introduced to the teachings of Islam which Kaffah, who introduced Islam rules that govern all aspects of life. Not only in matters of aqidah and worship, but also in issues of association includes about genitalia and rules in dress.
From a friend, I ended up studying Islam, and moved to berislam kaffah. I started to proceed to run my duty as a Muslim who has the obligation to cover the nakedness perfectly when in public life, namely the obligation to wear the veil and headscarf. Eventually I began to realize the importance of a Muslim woman close his private parts perfectly.
Not because it will benefit the security of Muslim, but because it is an obligation that Allah has imposed upon us. Moreover, the veil is a Muslim identity that would differentiate between women with female gentile believers. Subhanallah, I firmly once chose the option to wear a hijab.
However it turns out, my choice veiled decided to get a challenge from my family. My mother, brother and my sister. They really wanted me to enter the boarding school, but never wanted me to be a radical (in their view). According to them it is enough that I wear ordinary clothes worn as befits the girls at the time. Hooded, wearing jeans or plain clothes. While I, wearing a veil and hijab (clothing abaya). Their concern is, with me wearing the hijab, I shall not be ogled men. Astaghfirullah ...
My view is a little bit different with my family and with the most people at the time. Most of them looked at the veil is the veil (headdress / khimars). To me, that is when it has started to study Islam, a woman of faith obligation not only veiled but also veiled. Hijab as already contained in the Qur'an Surat al-Ahzab verse 59 is different from the definition of hoods / khimars in the letter an-Nuur verse 31. The veil is the outer garment for a woman of faith when he left the house or meet with laki- stranger. The veil like Arab women's clothing (abaya / gamis), namely loose clothing that covers the entire female body from top to bottom.
Despite a tough challenge from my family, but I remained adamant will continue veiled, because I have understood their obligations. I tried to hang my family why I'm veiled, hijab is understood that turned out to be different from their understanding. My sister even have branded me knowingly when I was not pesantren (boarding school most of my family).
My sister angry when I explain about the proposition obligation veil. He said, the religious teacher in my village also nothing requires dressed like me, even their children nothing I dressed as extreme, but they are graduates of the schools, while I?
The words my brother a little painful to say I knowledgeably, patronizing, but I'm not a boarding school graduates make me sad and crying. I do not know, I just wanted to run what I understand of Islam. I do not mean to patronize my brother, I just want to explain why I'm dressed like this.
Over time, and I proceed in improving the quality of my understanding of Islam and continue to strive also encounters the understanding that I can be of studies I attended to my family, they finally began to accept my presence 'different' to them, albeit with warn, warn saying 'please you like it, but do not invite this family-invite '. Although I'm sad to hear it, but a little relieved given the freedom to run and move according to what I understand it.
Preached to the family is not easy, but that does not mean it can not. and propaganda is not the final result but a process that must be followed. Had the mission is certainly the end result will all be disappointed. Prophet was unable to convert his family, but the Prophet proceeds to spread Islam to the middle of his family, his friends, and to other human beings. Because the mission is this process that makes no receding stepped despite a challenge of my own family.
But even though my family has freed me to choose my choice with berislam, not infrequently they are still trying to make me waver in my choices. Especially my mother who wanted me to appear mediocre. Sometimes my mother shake me in my village pointed out that kiayi not as extreme understanding. Kiyai child dressed in my village do not have to wear the hijab and socks as I wear. Suffice veil that wraps the head, do not need to wear loose clothing like that I wear.
Veil is an obligation, the headscarf is an obligation that must be undertaken another Muslim woman. Because it is a consequence of choosing Islam as aqidah which he believed. Picking obligation is the same as denying all liabilities. And I do not want to belong to the people who pick and choose liabilities.
Although currently none of my family who have the same understanding with me, but I never broke. I hope, someday, there will be from the family who follow in my footsteps preach Islam to the middle of the community and of course was kept as it was prescribed Islam. Insha Allah ... ..
I do not just seek to memahamankan family, I also tried to transfer my understanding to friends campus at the time. Alhamdulillah finally there are some which are then veiled. Not just veiled, they also follow the weekly routine studies like the one I follow.
Some are receiving, some are refused. And all that I thought was natural. As also on past experience rejection Prophet preaching, and experience also receives propaganda. All of it is a process that must be followed.
Finish elementary school, my mother asked me to enter the boarding school, but I was not interested. Frameku when it is, schools where the ancient, not modern. I had to wear a veil that would restrict gerakku. And I want to free expression as western people there are free to move to and fro without any obstacles.
Shows in the media who became one of the factors I have a secular thinking like this. My idol when it is artists West, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, and Boys Band that when it is rising artists that I like, which I thought at the time they are modern, advanced because it does not bring religious identity. For me (once again, at that), Islam I looked restrict the movement of women with all the obligations that must be fulfilled, such as veiling.
Graduated from high school, my mother's tireless expect me to go in pesantran, again I refused. I have absolutely no desire to enter the boarding school. Boarding schools will only weaken me. I want to go forward with the current secular education. Qiblah my thinking at that time was the West. I looked further west than Islam, then no doubt, kuadopsi Liberal thinking at the time. Astaghfirullah ....
From elementary to high school I did not shut auratku, in addition to not have a full understanding of the obligation to close the genitals, as well as school friends that most of them did not close the genitals. Especially when the school was also less support to students who close the genitals. Understandably, I was a product of the new order, which at that time, Islamic studies not proliferated as they are now. I do not even like the women who wear the veil width, antediluvian. Astaghfirullah ....
However, circumstances changed 180 degrees when I graduated from high school and worked at a number of companies in Tangerang. That's where I met with ideological Islamic studies. I was introduced to the teachings of Islam which Kaffah, who introduced Islam rules that govern all aspects of life. Not only in matters of aqidah and worship, but also in issues of association includes about genitalia and rules in dress.
From a friend, I ended up studying Islam, and moved to berislam kaffah. I started to proceed to run my duty as a Muslim who has the obligation to cover the nakedness perfectly when in public life, namely the obligation to wear the veil and headscarf. Eventually I began to realize the importance of a Muslim woman close his private parts perfectly.
Not because it will benefit the security of Muslim, but because it is an obligation that Allah has imposed upon us. Moreover, the veil is a Muslim identity that would differentiate between women with female gentile believers. Subhanallah, I firmly once chose the option to wear a hijab.
However it turns out, my choice veiled decided to get a challenge from my family. My mother, brother and my sister. They really wanted me to enter the boarding school, but never wanted me to be a radical (in their view). According to them it is enough that I wear ordinary clothes worn as befits the girls at the time. Hooded, wearing jeans or plain clothes. While I, wearing a veil and hijab (clothing abaya). Their concern is, with me wearing the hijab, I shall not be ogled men. Astaghfirullah ...
My view is a little bit different with my family and with the most people at the time. Most of them looked at the veil is the veil (headdress / khimars). To me, that is when it has started to study Islam, a woman of faith obligation not only veiled but also veiled. Hijab as already contained in the Qur'an Surat al-Ahzab verse 59 is different from the definition of hoods / khimars in the letter an-Nuur verse 31. The veil is the outer garment for a woman of faith when he left the house or meet with laki- stranger. The veil like Arab women's clothing (abaya / gamis), namely loose clothing that covers the entire female body from top to bottom.
Despite a tough challenge from my family, but I remained adamant will continue veiled, because I have understood their obligations. I tried to hang my family why I'm veiled, hijab is understood that turned out to be different from their understanding. My sister even have branded me knowingly when I was not pesantren (boarding school most of my family).
My sister angry when I explain about the proposition obligation veil. He said, the religious teacher in my village also nothing requires dressed like me, even their children nothing I dressed as extreme, but they are graduates of the schools, while I?
The words my brother a little painful to say I knowledgeably, patronizing, but I'm not a boarding school graduates make me sad and crying. I do not know, I just wanted to run what I understand of Islam. I do not mean to patronize my brother, I just want to explain why I'm dressed like this.
Over time, and I proceed in improving the quality of my understanding of Islam and continue to strive also encounters the understanding that I can be of studies I attended to my family, they finally began to accept my presence 'different' to them, albeit with warn, warn saying 'please you like it, but do not invite this family-invite '. Although I'm sad to hear it, but a little relieved given the freedom to run and move according to what I understand it.
Preached to the family is not easy, but that does not mean it can not. and propaganda is not the final result but a process that must be followed. Had the mission is certainly the end result will all be disappointed. Prophet was unable to convert his family, but the Prophet proceeds to spread Islam to the middle of his family, his friends, and to other human beings. Because the mission is this process that makes no receding stepped despite a challenge of my own family.
But even though my family has freed me to choose my choice with berislam, not infrequently they are still trying to make me waver in my choices. Especially my mother who wanted me to appear mediocre. Sometimes my mother shake me in my village pointed out that kiayi not as extreme understanding. Kiyai child dressed in my village do not have to wear the hijab and socks as I wear. Suffice veil that wraps the head, do not need to wear loose clothing like that I wear.
Veil is an obligation, the headscarf is an obligation that must be undertaken another Muslim woman. Because it is a consequence of choosing Islam as aqidah which he believed. Picking obligation is the same as denying all liabilities. And I do not want to belong to the people who pick and choose liabilities.
Although currently none of my family who have the same understanding with me, but I never broke. I hope, someday, there will be from the family who follow in my footsteps preach Islam to the middle of the community and of course was kept as it was prescribed Islam. Insha Allah ... ..
I do not just seek to memahamankan family, I also tried to transfer my understanding to friends campus at the time. Alhamdulillah finally there are some which are then veiled. Not just veiled, they also follow the weekly routine studies like the one I follow.
Some are receiving, some are refused. And all that I thought was natural. As also on past experience rejection Prophet preaching, and experience also receives propaganda. All of it is a process that must be followed.
